Blogust #15 - The Headache 16:55 | 21-08-2026 | Friday Not to be super intense on main, but today I had a headache so bad that it shifted something inside of me. Like changed something fundamental about my outlook towards life. It came on because I was looking at my phone for too long without wearing my glasses (I must be getting older), and it started increasing steadily until I had to go lie down on the couch. Eventually, I was forced to start asking questions like why me, why do these things always happen to me, why am I always stressed, why are my shoulders always tense, my jaw always clenched, my stomach always full of rocks. Why does it always feel like I messed up something at work, or that I am about to mess up something at work and everyone is about to shame me for being careless and irresponsible. And then something about the throbbing pain made me see myself from the outside for the first time, without the beliefs I usually hold onto. And I suddenly saw the mountain of irrational beliefs I was buried under, wondering what is weighing me down... it was transcendental. I am just saying, you know, some people take ayahuasca, but you could also just squint at your phone in the dark until the ghost of your past visits you and reveals the true meaning of life. My headache hasn't even left me yet, I am writing this through the fog of migraine, assuming I have no more wisdom to gain from the pain. In other news, if you saw the home page in the last 24 hours, you would know I was doing some crazy tinkering with trying to play audio on the home page and accidentally left giant play and pause buttons floating in the center, all day. I fixed them now though, so no cigar if you try to find them now. But now you can play my current fav song while looking at my website! I will beautify it a little more later. Ideally I should be making a little widget corner on a right-hand side panel on the home page, where all such information can reside. I don't know if I will ever get around to doing that though. Alright, I'll take my leave until the next post then. See you all soon! Love, Aeish <3