Another day Another headache By Shadowz 06/08/2026 - 10:00 AM 06/08/2026 Blaugust2026 If it’s not one thing it is another. I go to sleep with headaches, I wake up with headaches, and I don’t complain about them because it’s pointless. I have suffered headaches for the last 30 years. Most were brought on by certain medications I took as a teenager, other are just everyday things. Plus lets not forget that I don’t sleep all the great either now. I do miss sleeping like I did at one time which was for 12 hours at a time. Now I’m rarely sleeping, I get maybe 3-5 hours a night, and falling asleep off an on during the day sometimes. Other times I’m fine. When I’m like this I don’t want to do anything other than try to get rid of the pain in my head. I do take pills to help ease the pain at least in my head, and I can try to talk to my doctor this month when I go in on the 17th. It also makes it hard to play games too when your head is pounding and doesn’t even at times give a minute of release. I wish I knew what was causing this pain, so again on the 17th I will be talking with my doctor and trying to find ways to help me ease the pain in my head. It kind of sucks that I’m dealing with this pain all the time. I’ve been having these problems for over 20 years now and I wish it would just stop. A lot of my problems at the moment are because of the way Blade was fired from his job, and before they had him leave the buildings, they told him he would get his unemployment only to be denied now. So I’ve been digging deep into it trying to find a way to get him his benefits, and to make this company become an example that they can not just make up rules to fit them and deny someone benefits. Yes I’m being a little vindictive so to speak, but that is because I’m sick and tired of how society has become over the last few years. Especially when there are people out there that believe they can say anything to get someone who was only doing their job fired because they didn’t get the reaction they wanted or because they believed they were entitled to share a life because they honestly believed that everyone cheats. I’m sorry if my blaugust this year seems to be wrapped around Blade and the unemployment drama, but he is my partner in life, both online and offline, and his mental health matters to me so much right now cause he is depressed about not being able to provide for Raven and myself. He feels like shit, and has told me numerous times that he should just pack up and leave my life. I am fighting for our life together right now. When so many others have walked away from him because of whatever their reasons where. I refuse to give up on him. I’m out there with him at myside helping get his resume out there, setting up both virtual and in person interviews for him to get a new job. I will not quit no matter how hard it becomes. He is my best friend, the love of my life, and I will do whatever I can to make sure he is good. Not just mentally but also being a healthy man as well. I am also making sure that I have at least something posted to my YouTube daily so I do try to game ,even though it’s not entirely what I want to play half the time, but I am trying my best to do everything I can to help us succeed in our life. It’s not perfect, and it’s not glamours, but it’s our life, and I will never put him out because of whatever it is at the moment. He is my everything. Related Discover more from Shadowz Abstract Gaming Subscribe to get the latest posts sent to your email. About Shadowz A woman who enjoys playing video games, and will blog about my experiences, but also record video game play for my YouTube channel. View all posts by Shadowz Bookmark the permalink.